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Vulnerability

I realised I like to have my font in white whenever I feel a sense of inferiority and vulnerability. It's not nice to bottle up everything or to feel negative about things around me, yes I know that. But if you are not me (and yes which you are not), I'm unable to tell you what I'm going through too. I'm not saying that what I'm undergoing is worse than anyone out there. And it doesn't really help to tell me that there are people who are feeling worse. I can only say that there is a limit to everyone and anyone's patience and perhaps, mine is just hitting the peak of the scale. It is pretty sad to be questioned by my mum everyday when I am merely busy with school work or tuition and nothing else. I was genuinely happy for a moment yesterday when I took all my dangdangs out, only to hear from my brother that he needs my room. I thought I was going to enjoy some peace after she's gone for her exchange but looks like things are not yet going my way. And I hate how he opened my mail thinking that it was his lego set. This is why I have set my mind to apply for masters so as to be away for at least a year. While I need to move out of my comfort zone, I also need to move away from this place which I can hardly find a space that I can call my own. That said, another pile of work awaits me tomorrow and so I shall hit the bed and continue to slog tomorrow.
 
Last but not least, to my dearest friend Mic Chai, JIAYOU ok?

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