The problem with me.

I remember I promised Max that I would play sports more regularly when this sem starts, so that I would be more occupied with something healthy and be less pessimistic about everything around me. I won't say I have been playing very regularly, but I do quite enjoy myself during badminton games because it is a good avenue for me to relieve stress or to interact with my friends. Unfortunately, the overwhelming workload and the stress that results really devour me, all the time. I'm not sure if that's because I don't have a strong mind. I am just so tired. I have had really poor appetites these days, I feel like sleeping even when I'm showering, I get giddy when I'm already lying on bed. How on earth? And it's not helping that my mum doubts that I have lesson when I return home late. That aside, I realise little things like friends have gradually stopped saying goodbye when they leave for another class, or we simply don't lunch together that frequently anymore, perhaps because we are all too busy. Worse, I don't see that many smiles anymore. I try to joke but people don't laugh at my jokes anymore. What I see are only small and tired eyes, or expressions of anxiety and impatience. I hate this, really. But I don't know how to cope with all these.

 

I just need a breather.