Surgery is scheduled tomorrow and frankly I'm a little scared.
No one in the family knows except mum. But she has forgotten about it.
No one in the family knows except mum. But she has forgotten about it.
This CNY, I realised many things. I realised I have always envied families who go out as a whole for CNY visiting, or those who invite many relatives and friends over. I realised I am very afraid of the coming of CNY because CNY simply means watching movies and slacking at home for me. I love to watch movies, there is no doubt about that. Perhaps I just don't appreciate the latter because there is so much to face head-on. I hate the silence or otherwise awful hurlings at the dining table. I hate how I need to pretend to be hospitable to people I dislike. This year, I hid in my room when people I did not feel comfortable with came, then I was accused of being stubborn and impolite. Sometimes I really wonder if being myself is of imperative or being polite is. Whichever the case, I want to confess that I really feel tired and unhappy this CNY. The worst is that I feel that no one can understand because everyone I tried to rant this to tells me I should go home because it is CNY after...
hope it goes well. it's in a way good that she has forgotten all about it. at least she doesn't need to worry. you can tell her about it after that and she'll be relieved when she sees you cheerily relating the whole process. haha
ReplyDeleteWhat surgery??? Sorry I am always the last to know anything...
ReplyDelete@janvin: haha thank you :) I suppose so too!
ReplyDelete@Wen: Haha just a small surgery. I will fill you in when I see you around in sch! Don't worry about it! :)