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明明是中文系,却感觉很久没有打中文字了。也许,也许对于读书真的不再抱有太强烈的热忱,所以在做作业的时候就完全忽视了自己在打中文字的事实。也许,也许整天面对一堆看似永远做不完的东西,所以在抒发情感的时候就特别避免再用中文字。趁现在休息,好好地抒发一下情绪,要不接下来的日子大概没有这种闲情逸致。
 
好忙啊。真的。
 
事情就是永远做不完的样子。这个学期比上个学期少修一门课,开始的时候还得意洋洋,以为这个学期肯定有时间多打球、看看港剧什么的。原来念荣誉不是盖的。这是一架几人驾驶的飞机。孤掌难鸣啊。但是身边的副驾驶员若是有意怠慢,或者根本无意起飞,一个人的力量又能成就什么?(我没有在暗示什么,真的没有。你信吗?哈。)
 
做人难。做好人更难。我不懂得如何在不用强悍的情况下让别人合作,所以搞得我整个人对学习的兴致都快被榨干了。我好想好想赶快完成手头上的工作,好好地坐下来吃块芝士蛋糕、或者一片比萨,就是一包薯片都行。
 
希望下次回来的时候,我已经把事情做得七七八八了。
而不是已经放弃自己。

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