Attended Mel and Tsu's commencement today and I felt nothing but weird. Of course I'm happy for both my friends for having graduated from university. Yet, while I tried to put myself in the shoes of theirs, I didn't feel too erm.. excited? Then again, they may not think the same. What awaits after graduation should be quite a bit of everything - work, family, new goals - or at least it ought to be like that conventionally. Some have graduated with a few checked, but I have none. And so when I think about my very own commencement, I hope I don't even have to graduate, best, stay in school as long as I can. I have my dreams, but they seem so far away. People will say, no you can achieve your ideals, just work hard! I don't know how true that is, I just think I prefer to be a little more realistic (I do believe dreams come true). But the irony - when I'm crushed under the debris of reality, I wish I can continue to dream my dream. Then the cycle repeats.
Few days back I told myself I must start learning to be optimistic about life. Shucks, did I just go back on my words?
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