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讀後感

“‘相信’這種事往往輕輕一捏就可以被徹底摧毀。”

“有些事情是已經注定好了,不管我們怎麽掙扎到底也只是改變形式,並不能改寫所謂的結果。而且所謂的如果,就是沒有辦法被實現的叫做如果。”

“失去的永遠最美好,得不到的也是。”

“沉默會比斥責的殺傷力更大更久。”

“有些話不說出口不管怎麽費力去猜測都是沒有用的。”

“這世上讓人最難受的事情就是事實,而且是自己並不願意相信的事實。”

“很多時候最簡單易懂的事情明擺著在自己的眼前,卻往往因爲太過簡單而開始猜疑,甚至揣測之中是不是隱藏著什麽樣的心思或者陷阱,或者選擇忽略它。”

—— Sophia《太近的愛情,太遙遠的你》

這本書我看了很久。應該說,我從圖書館借了很久,卻一直沒有把它讀完。它就這樣一直被我擱在一邊,我也沒試過花這麽長的時間讀一本書,但是我又不太喜歡有始無終的感覺。所以,今天一鼓作氣,趴在床上把它解決了。

Sophia 對人物的刻畫依舊是那麽深刻,讓人回想、讓人感動。

剛才媽媽說:“小時候我最喜歡讀瓊瑤的小説,編織美夢。”

我也喜歡沉浸在小説裏頭,幻想所有美好的事。
只是幻想與現實之間終究是隔著一片很廣闊的空間。我不知道這空間裏包含著什麽,我只知道幻想和現實之間的距離離得太遠,不該混淆。

我一直不敢承認自己的感覺,是因爲害怕把自己的尊嚴赤裸裸地擺出來。但儅我很努力地放下所謂的尊嚴奔向你的時候,你卻用最殘忍的沉默來踐踏我的勇氣。我知道,我已經破壞了我們之間微妙又危險的平衡。我還能說什麽呢?也許一開始是我錯了。是不是我錯了所以你要這樣對我?如果是這樣,那也沒什麽好辯的了。當初説好的幸福,我會把它們封存在記憶裏的某個角落。也只能這樣吧?

我會時時刻刻提醒自己:傷過一次,不可再傷。這也是你說的。

好笑,說到這裡,我竟然一絲悲傷都沒有。
倒是覺得有那麽一點點慶幸。

從此,我會更加努力讀書。
不爲什麽,只因爲我生命裏的這一部分又多了一個缺口。

今天,我為自己的認清事實而感到開心。真的 :)

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