Just thoughts.

I have no idea why, but somehow, I think I have become slightly quieter after the concert that night. Maybe I am just busy, maybe just tired, or maybe there are simply too many things going through my mind. It seems like there is no longer anything to look forward to? I think if there was anything I anticipated most since young, it was Blue. Now that I have been so close, I have been to their concert, I suddenly feel empty. Call me a fan girl, well I think I really can be one. But anyway my point is that after the concert, it struck me that all I have in my mind is studies, studies and studies. Of course there are other committments, but studies always come to mind first. I am not sure if this is a good thing but it does not seem so to me for now because I always believe there are a lot more in life other than studies.

And then I have been thinking about the past, again.

And, I still scroll down to look through my list of contacts when I log on to messenger these days.

Thoughts keep flowing in, not for a good cause I suppose? And that is when I need to acquire the art of controlling my thoughts from impeding my progress in school work.

There is this inner voice of late, telling me that I will not make it. I guess it will be a tough fight.

Lastly, I saw two friends today and it dawned upon me that, there are still people who love you, but if they do not share the same mindset as you, it is hard to be friends.

I know my points are incoherent but I am typing them as I can recall.

I am so beat, mentally and physically. Goodnight, although I never liked to say this.