For rememberance,

I am glad I chose to take a bus home just now. Had quite a bit of quiet time and thought about the people I miss these days. And all the past.

I was looking through the SMSes that I never deleted and I came to this realisation that most of the messages I kept are from this particular sender and this person really makes me laugh, even now that I look at the messages again.

17 June 2008 (on a random night):

Hello girls I am here to teach you all how to get what you want with guys. ;) This is a traditional method used by the 后宫 so proven effective. Just remember the sentences below and you will definitely succeed. 一哭二闹三上吊. Good luck!

13 August 2008 (when I was in a dilemma whether to make a confession to Sam):

Haiyo. Go la! Just imagine next time dun need steal watch him anymore. You can just look straight into his eyes! (Imagine that!) And you can touch him whenever you wan. Caress him everytime you see him. :-o sounds like A rated show le. Aiya its all or nothing la lian. You dun say den ok lor 1 more month and thats it. You say maybe its forever or maybe its the same as not saying. However if you fail you can still follow 湘琴 mah. Just keep trying. You see in the end she also got 植树! If she can spend 6 years chasing him why cant you? :-D show him your determination! 加油好美!!!

Omg!! Really ar!! Use 湘琴果然有用！Must persist like 湘琴! I think now you sure get rejected one. But if you continue like 湘琴 who knows, 10 years down the road I may be invited to you and his wedding! Like 江植树 & 袁湘琴!!! Especially when his character is like 植树! Gogo! Go  湘琴! 6 years await you!

14 September 2008 (Mooncake Festival):

Im sorry guys not going to wish you guys happy mooncake festival. Cause I was too hungry and ate up the moon.:-o No moon for you this mooncake festival. Goodbye.

2 December 2008 (when he was entering NS):

Hey guys this is probably one of the last times you can see Maxy messaging you all already.. Hmmm.. Just wanna say thanks for everything and sorry for all my wilfulness. Hopefully I won't 穿反了眼睛 in army.. =diu in maple cause i know i wont be teleported to the nearest town le.. Guess you guys wont be hearing from me for at least 3 weeks den. Hope it wont be a forever 我们就到这.. Keep close to the newspaper though..

3 December 2008 (his first day in Tekong):

Hey guys this is max lim reporting LIVE from the lovely island of tekong! the scenery here is quite fanstastic! and the trainings so far from what they say seems pretty easy! for further updates please tune in later. and im coming out on 7th dec night! currently available ;)

1 January 2009 (New Year):

Hey people, happy new year! May all your dreams come true. Except dreaming about me ;) no matter how high demand i am, not free.

26 January 2009 (Chinese New Year):

Hey sisters, wishing you all a very happy new year. May you bimbos out there (cancelling out the looks) gain more knowledge in this coming year. May you be able to recite your abcs soon. Yours faithfully, president of bimbo club. (that have looks ;))

12 December 2009 (when I was worrying over unnecessary matters..):

Just wanna tell you anxieties and worries are seriously not gonna help u in anything okay dear.. U've seriously gotta learn to cast your worries aside cos worries are like shackles dat would slow u down in ur attempts to advance!!! so GL stop worrying!!! Just go ahead and advance!!! Be strong gurl!!!!

15 December 2009 (when for the first time I said I was going to move on):

Okay thats great dear. Since u've chosen this urself i'll support u!!! ;) friends last longer than lovers dear!!!! :) :) :)

20 December 2009 (when I tried to comfort him but got comforted instead):

Hey gL, you have always been my bestie kks, and it will nv change 10 yrs ltr or even the day i die kks. So pls retract the "i know i have not been a best friend or a good friend lately" cos u have always been good friend and a bestie in my heart no matter what happens. :)

21 December 2009 (when I asked him to slap me if I ever mentioned Sam again):

Yes GL!!! U have found the right person man. I will nt oni shut u up, i will dig in at u till u hurt so much dat he will die in ur heart!

Yes definitely. Pls la i wont even give u permission to meet him!!! Ur evil stepsister alr!!! LOL. Hey tell me whenever u miss him kks! I need to either slap u hard or sayang u depending on the situation... :)

If u need to totally ignore him to forget him, do u think ur forgetting him completely? And also i wanna ask u, when u dun love him alr, do u still wan him as a friend? When u can answer these 2 qns, u will noe whether to reply alr anot :) u will have the answers urself dear! :)

U gotta dig out the answers urself man!! Cos u noe urself best. No matter how close a person is to u, only u noe urself best! :) just share with u something dat really impacted me. "the most powerful love is not to love sacrificially but to love undeservingly"

25 December 2009 (when I was unhappy on my favourite festive season):

GL I just learnt something dat i wanna share with u! "happiness is nt an emotion, is nt by chance or by luck. Happiness is by will. If I will be happy, no matter what circumstances arise, we'll be happy. Normal people will be happy when joyous things spring up, but great people face problems with smiles and happiness." so gl i wanna ask u today, would u like to be just a normal person? or work towards being a great person? :) Maxi loves u kks! :)

(I replied: The latter lor.)

Hahaha. Yes GL!!!!! Thats the spirit!!! Im sure u'd be a great person!!! And u noe what else i learnt, "nv allow externals affect my internals. Nv allow someone or a circumstances be a determining factor of our own happiness!"

17 September 2011 (when I wanted to leave Wei Xin's birthday party because Sam came):

U gotta start again somewhere somehow. Fall from where, pick yourself up from where. I'm sure u noe. Just be strong! Jiayou! Come back tonight and emo I'll slap u!

28 November 2011 (when I was going to die from depression):

Hi darling, just wanted to tell u dat, focus on what makes u happy if your nt in control of what makes you unhappy. :) have a great day darlingg! :)

And then of course there are more...

Thank you Max! I don't care what people say about you being bitchy bimotic slutty gay whatever. I love you and you are my best friend and thank you for all that you have done for me these years, be it sending random smses to encourage me or amuse me, come to my house with bags of food in the middle of the night to cheer me up, writing me letters sealed in nice envelopes everytime I plunge into depression. I am sorry you are always the one to hear me out but I am hardly there for you. But remember that I love you the way you love me and these days were supposed to be really bad but after re-reading your messages I feel loved once again and I want to hug you so bad! I love you darling!!!

(P.S: ZZR pls don't be jealous. You are my best friend too. Without the two of you in this world, I can't imagine myself surviving on my own. I love you all the same!)

I want to post this now because I am so afraid of losing my phone one day and then I will lose all of these.