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欲哭无泪

一波未平,一波又起。

第一件事。
我正在图书馆做论文。正要储存档案,后面一个女生踢到我的电线,电脑关掉。文件没有储存。Good game.

第二件事。
我重新启动电脑,打开文件,再次打进了没有被储存好的资料。那个女生又踢到电线,电脑再次关机。我继续忍。

第三件事。
老师当众说我的作业错得不像样。全部目光在我身上,自卑。

下课后,我照常开玩笑,若无其事。因为很多人说,开心和不开心,日子照过。那还不如开心?是这样说的吗?

如果‘坚强’是个正面形容词,那我为什么这么不快乐?

我想欲哭无泪大概就是这个意思吧。

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