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To: my conscience.

Dear Conscience,


我坚持的都值得坚持吗?
我所相信的就是真的吗?
如果我敢追求我就敢拥有吗?
而如果都算了不要呢?

Maybe I should be glad that from that start I didn't try to fight for it or even persist. Because ultimately it won't be mine. What I persist on might not be worth the persistence; what I believe might not be true; and what I fight for I might not have the courage to embrace it. Some things are nicest at a distance, not when they are yours. Just imagine, maybe the beauty of it all will be ruined once it becomes yours. I'm not accepting it only now, but it is now that I really believe that he's the one for her. And so I can only hope for both to be happy.

There's so much more out there waiting for me to realise. Thank you conscience, for you've not done anything more than you should. You've fulfilled the calmness and rationality that you promised, and because of this fulfilment, you've become more patient and more positive about things. Thank you for having this wish that they will truly be happy. It is probably something like this that will make everyone happy.

I'm so proud of you.



Regards
Your owner

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