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Dreams.

I kept thinking about what Eric said to me earlier, "A passing phase continues to be one because no action is taken." And so I really wanted to do something about it. I went to the HKU website to read up on the information I needed. I was so tempted to click 'apply'. And then I hesitated, I did not click after all. Money. Money was the issue. It was also courage. I didn't have the courage to tell my mum about this because I know she would start vexing herself over money and she would ask me if it's worth it. Many told me that I also had to fret over proving my mum right. But that wasn't really the case. I never really bothered to do anything to prove my mum right because she believes in me once a decision is made, whatever the decision is. Everyone's been telling me it's "so wasted" to give up now. I do not really think that's the case because we should always strive towards our dreams, right? I just feel that life is too long and too short to do anything that you really don't enjoy doing. I know, of course, it might be early to give a verdict now.

Last week I promised Michelle a dedication on yes933 some time soon and I decided to do it today. Peifen called me and started chatting with me. And I think what she said made some sense. Maybe it's like I said, a passing phase and probably because I'm merely feeling sian as I just wanted some thrills in my life at this point of time.

The verdict is that, this phase will, like any other time, continue to pass.

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