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我知道伤心不能改变什么.

I think the walk at the Southern Ridges always makes me feel emotionally better. I totally felt I was a slut before that. Maybe talking to my fellow alumni and teachers always makes me get to know them more and forget about things I really need to chuck aside. I figured I felt very miserable these days because friends have been giving me all kinds of advice or telling me what I should do and what I shouldn't. Because some advices differ so much, it sucks to not know what to do or what I really want. Now it all boils down to my own decisions. And I felt I should just 跟着感觉走, as simple as that. Because no matter what others say, they are not me, and eventually I am the decision maker.

I feel like one of the closed chapters has been opened up again. And it plays like a bad song in my head. The characters, the plot, the ending, they are still the same. I didn't write them this way, but some things are meant to be like this. I never want to try so hard again.

Thank you to those who have walked the 10 km with me.


Have a blessed birthday Nelson :)

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