1818.

This is my 1818th post on the first day of 2011. I think it's the fourth year I'm spending my last day of the year with the same bunch of people. I think Rui, Maxie and Jason were right about the 12 a.m. moment. You just feel empty right after that moment. And so we decided to carry on with our mahjong game and not do any countdown. I think the company mattered more than anything else. With these 4 years of countdown experiences, I really think I would feel out of place if I were to celebrate any new year in future alone. So, I shall hope that such things will not happen. The 12 a.m. moment was epic, and I had a great laugh. For the second year, we spent our 1st of Jan at Hoagies. Today we spent 5 hours sitting there and talking about everything and anything. It was just nice being with these friends whom I never ever regretted knowing.

If there was one thing I had to say about 2010, I would say that it's been a year of dilemmas. It hasn't really been a good year since the start. I was torn in between whether to stay in NUS or not, whether to carry out certain actions or not, whether to believe in certain things or not, a lot more of such which always seemed like negligible issues but were often important decisions. After all, every little step in life may be a turning point, right? Yet, despite all these peaks and troughs, I managed to pull through the year, and considerably unscathed. Of course this has to be attributed to a group of friends and my mum who have all been providing me with the mental pillar. There are always this group of people who never really left, and this year I want to specially thank these people.

Thank you Ohana! Messages left on our joint blog :)

Thank you Chew Chew! You never fail to be that listening ear. And I know you always read my blog entries from head to bottom no matter how long-winded I can be. My 2010 has been memorable partly because of you and I know 2011 is going to be the same because of you :)

Thank you Eric! I think the start of 2010 hasn't been easy for me but you were really there to help me pull through the very difficult times. You're really, really a good person :)

The rest, it doesn't mean you don't mean anything to me. You guys have been very constant friends just like Ohana and Chew Chew. Bren, Nelson, Badd, Rahil, Chris, SK, you guys are great.

And the people who have been secretly reading my blog, thank you for bothering :) If I don't know that you've been following me on my blog, pelase let me know!

In 2011, I want to be that crazy me because I want to be happy. I want to be happy because my friends hope so and because I really want to be happy. I am hopeful about the new year and I resolve to be a better friend. I don't exactly know how so but I believe it will come instinctively.

Have a blessed 2011, people. We all deserve it.