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新生心声?

刚读完九把刀的《月老》。觉得作者的用语很大胆,这是我只能望尘莫及的。但是作者的形容真的很形象,自信却又有自信的资格。读完这本书,我觉得作者有种强烈的宿命论。前些时候芝维跟我说:“现在我相信缘分了”。有趣,但也好笑。因为现在渐渐不相信的人是我。我只是觉得自己被命运作弄,然后我也只能接受这场玩笑。我没有任何抱怨,但我很难再去相信。如果缘分这回事还有什么值得我去相信的,那我只能相信缘分让我们再次遇见,让我喜欢你,但它不让这颗即将枯萎的苗有机会萌芽。也许,没有开始是最好的结束吧?一年前的明天这个时候,我彻夜难眠。一年前的后天,是我最后一次看到你。一年了。时间飞逝很快。但流逝的是人,不是时间。一年了,很多事都不一样了。在这一年里,你快乐吗?我不记得任何快乐时光,只记得一个很难很难度过的难关。我告诉我自己,我不会再回到那段痛苦的日子。一年后,也就是今天这个时候,我很累。我知道我再不会彻夜难眠。因为我的信念都没了,没什么可期待的,所以了无牵挂,自然睡得好。原来我整天挂在嘴边的 "moving on" 并不是也不会是一个状态,它是一个过程。在这过程之后往回看,我发现自己走过了多少路才到达今天这片天地。在这片天地里,我要找回我失去的。它叫做“勇气”。如果有什么人看到它,请记得跟我说一声。我会把它拾回来。

晚安,今夜我一定会睡得很好 :)

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