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WHY?

That's right, I still think "Why" is probably the most frustrating coinage on earth. Probably even the most patient person will go bonkers (not literally) at trying to figure out issues that sometimes have no answers to them. Many times I am torn in between wanting to help and leaving things as they are. I'm saying this because lately I have friends (not friend) who have suicidal thoughts, again. There are such times I wish I can render the best advice, really. I want to be able to help, to be of some influence so as to change their minds. But, how? And then we realised, the second most frustrating word coined. I don't have, or (long ago) no longer have suicidal thoughts and so I cannot really understand the reasons that trigger such thoughts. Is life that miserable that it is not worth living anymore? I don't know but for now, even when the worst tsunami hit me, I think I don't even have tears to shed, let alone kill myself? I'm not trying to say I'm strong or what. But I believe that if I have the courage to die, then why not the courage to fight the evil thoughts and solve the problem? We always work things out somehow, don't we?

This issue means something to me because, it always reminds me of her. I always thought that even though we were not close, should I have talked to her more and tried to understand more, maybe things would turn out differently. I don't want to see something like that happen again. I don't want to regret when things happen.

Dear friends, trust me, you're very important to me. And because you hold such a significant position in my heart, I really hope you will believe me: Mind over everything. Will you believe me please?

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