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Take a chance,

I guess Maxie is right. Humans are made up of positivity and negativity. It's nice to keep your chin up and stay positive all the time. But I think it's abnormal to be positive (or act unaffected?) at all times when you know your world is crumbling. And so I shall not hide my tinge of disappointment from this morning, that I did not do well for my mid terms. I clearly know, though, that I am going to work harder for the upcoming final exams. I don't really have the chance to feel negative about anything now because, I know that if I want to save my friends, I got to save myself first.

On a side note, my sister passed me something that I left in my bag (which she borrowed). I was stunned when I saw. It was the letter I wrote to him but eventually did not pass to him on 17 October 2009. It is hysterical how all these things come together. If it's a test that I'm to be put through, I'll proudly say that I'm once again over this test. I kept the letter because Angie told me then that I might have a chance to give it to him one day. After more than a year, I finally decided to tear the letter. Indeed, letters should be given to recipients whom the letters are meant for. Right now, I'm just choosing to believe that some things are not meant to be and the letter has become a redundance.

There is really nothing left to keep.

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