Half the day was spent with Ohana girls moving our things around the campus and eating non-stop. But often such days are what make the week happening. Source of stress-reliever:) I'm extremely hooked to the new TVB 刑警. This happens all the time, when exams are nearing. I hate myself lah. Ya quite. I think I'm partly responsible for putting Maxie in an awkward position to attend his class gathering. I sooooooooo wished things never had to come to this stage but I just can't do anything. Life is so full of disappointment, when you expect.
This CNY, I realised many things. I realised I have always envied families who go out as a whole for CNY visiting, or those who invite many relatives and friends over. I realised I am very afraid of the coming of CNY because CNY simply means watching movies and slacking at home for me. I love to watch movies, there is no doubt about that. Perhaps I just don't appreciate the latter because there is so much to face head-on. I hate the silence or otherwise awful hurlings at the dining table. I hate how I need to pretend to be hospitable to people I dislike. This year, I hid in my room when people I did not feel comfortable with came, then I was accused of being stubborn and impolite. Sometimes I really wonder if being myself is of imperative or being polite is. Whichever the case, I want to confess that I really feel tired and unhappy this CNY. The worst is that I feel that no one can understand because everyone I tried to rant this to tells me I should go home because it is CNY after...
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