应该就是这样的吧？Bf曾说：越快乐，快乐的时光就越短。然后就是空虚。我并不是不快乐，只是，手里握着的那个气球一直不舍得放，一直牢牢抓紧，甚至手掌都冒汗了还是不愿放手。所以就在放手的霎那间，最初的感觉是一阵刺痛，然后是空虚。空虚是最奇怪的感觉，仿佛处在一个什么都没有的空间，想要期待些什么，又不知道该期待些什么。但是空虚，有点像寂寞，好像是最容易被替代的感觉。所以我相信这种感觉不会持续。幸好，幸好。
气球应该是属于天空的吧？要不然，它为什么会飞？抓在手心里，好像剥夺了它的自由。
那么，你飞吧。
This CNY, I realised many things. I realised I have always envied families who go out as a whole for CNY visiting, or those who invite many relatives and friends over. I realised I am very afraid of the coming of CNY because CNY simply means watching movies and slacking at home for me. I love to watch movies, there is no doubt about that. Perhaps I just don't appreciate the latter because there is so much to face head-on. I hate the silence or otherwise awful hurlings at the dining table. I hate how I need to pretend to be hospitable to people I dislike. This year, I hid in my room when people I did not feel comfortable with came, then I was accused of being stubborn and impolite. Sometimes I really wonder if being myself is of imperative or being polite is. Whichever the case, I want to confess that I really feel tired and unhappy this CNY. The worst is that I feel that no one can understand because everyone I tried to rant this to tells me I should go home because it is CNY after...
teach u new method. Take needle burst. IF I CANNOT GET THE BALLOON, NOONE MUST GET IT! MUAHAHAHAHAHHA!
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