We celebrated Angie and YC's birthdays at Ling Zhi restaurant. I've always liked the ambience in a Chinese restaurant! And so it was nice ambience, nice company and of course nice food! The tart and cake were of course a bonus add-on thanks to our very generous Maxie. (Poor Zhi you missed all these great stuff!) And I really appreciate the kind of simple happiness I derived from such celebrations even if it means spending lesser time on my books. I'm looking forward to Christmas now! Christmas is like my favourite festival. But before that, I have so many plans in mind right after exams end :)
This CNY, I realised many things. I realised I have always envied families who go out as a whole for CNY visiting, or those who invite many relatives and friends over. I realised I am very afraid of the coming of CNY because CNY simply means watching movies and slacking at home for me. I love to watch movies, there is no doubt about that. Perhaps I just don't appreciate the latter because there is so much to face head-on. I hate the silence or otherwise awful hurlings at the dining table. I hate how I need to pretend to be hospitable to people I dislike. This year, I hid in my room when people I did not feel comfortable with came, then I was accused of being stubborn and impolite. Sometimes I really wonder if being myself is of imperative or being polite is. Whichever the case, I want to confess that I really feel tired and unhappy this CNY. The worst is that I feel that no one can understand because everyone I tried to rant this to tells me I should go home because it is CNY after...
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