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The lifetime process.

And so I was feeling very bored at 6p.m. just now that I decided to go out and take a walk. I made a trip down to Bugis (again...) and spent most of the time in Kino. I'm not sure whether to be proud of myself that I have so many Kino plastic bags now (that means I've been spending a lot on books). I finally couldn't resist the temptation and bought the crime fiction by Higashino Keigo. But nooooo, I promise myself I will not read it anytime soon. I need to spend some time on my school books I know that! Spent like 2.5 hours outside that I realised I am still very afraid of going out alone on a weekend night. The masses of people intimidate me, but what intimidates me more is the chance of seeing familiar faces which I believe I am not ready to approach, just yet. I wanted to shop around for a while more but many possibilities flashed past my mind and so I thought it was best to be back home. Scaredy cat huh? I guess it's not a small wound. It's an eternal one. I think I was never ready.

Alright, time to hit the books:)

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