It's been a couple of days and my flu isn't getting any better. And it got me thinking that I wasn't so frail in secondary school days despite the fact that I drank much lesser water than I do nowadays. I went to bed as early as 8.30p.m yesterday and it felt as if I've lost touch with the cyber world for so long! This, coupled with my very tired eyes of late, is apparently a bad sign of having used the computer for a drastically long period of time. I went to Harris twice that day and came to a decision that I shall not start my X-Men comics collection. It's a frigging costly investment and frankly I'll rather save up for a powershot G11!!! List of modules is out and I can't decide on what to take. I hate this part of the semester because everything and anything is a choice. My choice is that I hate making choices.
This CNY, I realised many things. I realised I have always envied families who go out as a whole for CNY visiting, or those who invite many relatives and friends over. I realised I am very afraid of the coming of CNY because CNY simply means watching movies and slacking at home for me. I love to watch movies, there is no doubt about that. Perhaps I just don't appreciate the latter because there is so much to face head-on. I hate the silence or otherwise awful hurlings at the dining table. I hate how I need to pretend to be hospitable to people I dislike. This year, I hid in my room when people I did not feel comfortable with came, then I was accused of being stubborn and impolite. Sometimes I really wonder if being myself is of imperative or being polite is. Whichever the case, I want to confess that I really feel tired and unhappy this CNY. The worst is that I feel that no one can understand because everyone I tried to rant this to tells me I should go home because it is CNY after...
told u so....tat nite slp at 6!!! where got early slp!
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