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Some day, one day.

So many first times after today's history paper. For the first time I feel that I'm not cut out to be a Chinese major after all. For the first time I REALLY feel like cheating in exam. For the first time I feel like saying the f-word at the sight of the questions. I still mean that even if you don't like me to say it. For the first time I bothered writing so slowly because I simply had nothing to write and I needed to write slower to stall for time. For the first time I come to the realization that examinations are not exactly a test of your wisdom, but of knowledge, luck and speed of your recapitulation.

For the first time I feel that, yes, there is really nothing that I'm good at.

I have one more paper to conquer before I can really spell freedom. I miss my tall ice blended white chocolate mocha without whip cream. I'm sick of sitting at my table everyday or in the school library trying to memorize contents when in actual fact nothing goes in. I'm dying from having to wake up at 7 or 8 every morning when I only sleep at 2 or 3.

People, don't ask me to jiayou anymore. I really know I must jiayou. Ask me to take care please. Because I really feel like I'm half alive/dead now. Whichever half, I'm just incomplete now.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHEENAAAAAAA:)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUNXIAN!




One day, one more day.

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  1. lizardMay 4, 2010 at 8:23 AM

    was quite shocked to know its ur first time to write slow to stall time. for me, i have been doing that since secondary...
    ONE MORE DAY!

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  2. THE LC FAMILYMay 5, 2010 at 9:53 AM

    fel:

    dun lose faith in urself!! i believed u tried ur best alr!!=)

    ReplyDelete

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