Respect, don't check this out.

As the heading suggests. Thank you.

I've always hoped that I would see her blog something about them. Fact is, when I finally saw, I think I didn't feel THAT good. I'm okay. And to be most honest, I'm happy that this time I can see she's really serious about him. My worries earlier were extremely uncalled for.

But I know, like Zhi said, I am really someone who really can't let go. I never fail to let those thoughts disturb me. I know that when I report to work on Monday, I will be reminded of the scenes and fake coincidences at the pathways, corridors, bus stops, wherever. I might even be reminded of the times when I told her about him every morning. Who would have expected this day to come? It's so much like a plot in a storybook. Classic? Well perhaps, though I really wished it never happened. The reason why I am so afraid of the end of exams is because I'm so afraid of having nothing to keep me fully occupied that I will keep thinking and feeling upset about it. Yes, I have accepted the fact that both of you have got together. It's just that acceptance doesn't equate to forgetting. In all honesty, I'm perhaps just trying to act forgiving. I do get tired of having to compromise with people when I'm out with them, when in actual fact, I feel like a failure when I'm alone. I fear the start of work, because I don't want to be reminded of the days by going back to where the memories were created.

I think I still blame you, for that text. I can never understand why you can do that to me. In retrospect, I think you'd always known how I felt. Perhaps you just chose to ignore.

I always thought I can forget by finding someone else. But thing is, there's only one you. And because of you, I don't trust anymore.

It's true, I don't trust anymore.

I know some of you will still read this. I just wished you didn't. I know you care, but there's always a vulnerable side of me that I want to keep transparent. I trusted you not to look when I said, don't check this out.