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Bad day.



I had a good dream this morning. But the goodness lasted only a short span.

I have 1001 thoughts going through my mind right now I think I don't have the time to settle them all.

I chose and dropped and chose and dropped various modules many times today and I still can't decide what module to take. I am freaking pissed with NUS bidding system. Okay I know it probably has nothing to do with the school. I just think such system sucks and it's a waste of time and they murdered a few millions of my brain cells within an hour.

Met Jascelyn to return to CTSS to visit Serene and Qianyi but Serene wasn't in school and Qianyi was too busy. We met Mrs Tey and Ms Tan and a couple of other teachers instead. Had Aspire'10 meeting with Mrs Wong till 5.30p.m. Ms Koh asked me if I was enjoying helping out with all these. Okay she didn't really ask. She phrased it this way, "You're enjoying it, right?". My reply was, "Not if I'm doing it again."

Was I sarcastic? I didn't mean it but I realised I sounded blunt and curt. Ms Koh is nice, I shouldn't have responded this way.

I really want to go to Malaysia with Ohana girls on Saturday but there is recee on Saturday. I can jolly well leave this job to someone else but I don't trust anyone to do this after last year's experience. I really fear to see people back out on the camp itself. I hate to be betrayed, especially when I need help super desperately.

I can feel the tension once again. The workload that is gradually and silently piling up. If this is a committment, and if one should never feel tired of a committment, then I think I don't even have the passion to begin with.

Let's just say this is one of life's obstacles and perhaps I should see it as a gift that life has to offer, even if I'm not liking it now.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LILING :)



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