Choice.

GL:

为什么人的一生中有那么多抉择要做？

LX:

so that no two person will have the same life

it cant be every single choice also the same

If there is something we all loathe about life, then for me, it will be decision-making.

When I was a kid, my mum decided Milo over Coco Cola for me because it was apparently a healthier choice. At Primary 3, she chose NHPS over PEPS much as I really didn't want to have a change of environment, but again, it was for convenience sake. At Primary 4, my brother chose EM1 for me even though I wanted to go to EM2 where all my friends were posted to. This was probably because of prestige. At Primary 6, my mother chose CTSS for me even though I wanted to go to NHSS. Again, it was for convenience sake.

At Secondary 2, I made my first major decision. I took double Humans and appealed for it on my own.

At J1, my mum chose JJ for me even though I decided on polytechnic. She didn't believe poly offers good prospects. This year, she decided NUS because of prestige. Of course, I was part of the decision-making.

Never did I ever think that I entered the university only to be confronted by more decisions. If I were to state all these choices on a piece of tissue paper, I think I would have accumulated a few boxes.

I used to abhor the fact that everything in my life was decided by my mother and brother. Now that I want them to make decisions for me, it's not even possible. Because I'm the one taking this path, they may be there to guide me but eventually they have their paths to take as well.

I hate such sense of loss. No directions. Not even a roadsign, an indication to orientate me. A bleak future.

GL, your independence begins today.