BYE 2009.

Dinner with Christopher at Pepperlunch. Argh I'm kind of disgusted. I always liked Pepperlunch but I can't help but cringe when I think of today's incident. When the lady (with the surname Gao according to Christopher) was clearing the table, she dropped Christopher's used tissue paper and a Pepperlunch coupon on my beef rice! She gave us the :o look while I returned with the :| look (you can check these emoticons out on MSN) BUT! She just apologised and walked off!! Why didn't she ask if I wanted to change my meal?! Ohmytian this is so incredible. You won't want to know what happened after and so I shan't elaborate.

P.S: Christopher pleasssssseeee stuff your used tissue papers into your bag or whatsoever next time! Argh.

I think I need some time to get over this. (I think I sound blonde.)

The year is coming to an end and I always have the habit of summing up the year (reminds you of a song?) on the 31st or 1st. However, I figured I will be too occupied tomorrow and perhaps the day after too so I shall do it today!

2009 is the most happening year in my 19 years of life.

1. It started off with teaching in alma mater and making new friends like Coconut Starfruit Wintermelon Nectarine Waterchestnut Sarah Edwina Liling Faizal (I hope I didn't miss anyone out), and working with good old friends like Watermelon Banana and Joey. Teaching really taught me a lot. No I am not playing with semantics here. It is an absolute truth. I've met all the problematic kids, ADD, ADHD, autistic, dyslexic. And like Liling said, it can really be interesting to walk in their world. It is also sad to see the real world out there. Backstabbing, politics. I think we can't run away from all these, can we? Something inevitable in society. Thank goodness for the great company in the Teacher's Resource Room. Thank you for the fun people!

2. Teaching in another environment, but also alma mater. I really regretted when I first entered the school as a teacher. Graduating classes! To make it worse, 2 chaotic classes. Nevertheless, I came to know the nice sides of them, especially 4A1. Thank you dears! You guys have been a lovely bunch. Can't wait to meet you guys at the bbq.

Oh yes and teaching in CTSS made me realise I really gave up on Guides. I really had passion to begin with. I wanted to pass on whatever knowledge I have (even though I know I have very limited guiding skills), I really wanted to bring the company to greater heights like I promised I would at YA UH camp at HQ. But sometimes, things work both ways. No matter how much effort you put in for someone, if the person has no intention of reciprocating, not even a word of appreciation, to me it's really pointless. You may not agree but that's what I feel.

3. Uni started. Sounds very atas right? I don't have the slightest idea who on earth claimed that uni is an easy path. I never really agreed. All I know is that I really live in timeless time and many a times I just want to lose myself in a simulated world (these are NM terms by the way). I cannot deny that I am utterly disappointed with my results this semester. I will really, really work hard next semester. It was good to have people like Hui Ying Esthers Ben Lixuan Yiting and Tsu Hui around to cheer me on. Thank you girls!

4. Can I just admit something here? Ever since the guys enlisted, Ohana drifted a little. No doubt the girls have become tighter. I know that earlier I have been so annoying. I really appreciate how you guys never left me and knocked some sense into me. If the problem has always been me, I believe it's been solved for a long term. Really love you blondes <3

I think there are definitely more events in the year but I probably just don't remember right now as I type.

I really learnt a lot this year and much as I don't want to say, know myself better. I've realised that part of my life's mission is to catch up with people. I've realised that through the passage of time, some people stay, some people go. Things aren't always within your control, you shouldn't try too hard. Maybe it's good enough to notice the people who always stay :)

I've learnt that I shouldn't always be too subjective, too critical, too perfectionist. Towards the end of this year, I think I really found a happier life.

I learnt to be thankful. Thankful for the people around me. I know there are silent readers, I know there are people who care.

If I have had a thankyou list for the past few years, this year shan't be an exception.

NELSON. You know what? No matter what happens, you are the only person I trust. I've always been afraid to call anyone my best friend but I think it's safe to call you one. Your words always make me feel that I'm never alone. Thank you, really :)

ZI RUI. What can I say? No one even yourself will believe if I say you're not one of my important friends. You've always been top 5 and I know I never have to worry that you will drop in the list. Thank you for always entertaining my irritating SMSes in Chinese characters!

I can't possibly go on like this. There are simply too many people I'm thankful to. You all are just as important:

OHANA - Zhi YC Angie Fel Max YY Zhuang

Ben (for telling me 我是Ben的朋友)

Eric (for sending me songs and always making me emo!)

Wan Ting

Jia Hui

Mel

Coconut (I have told you whatever I wanted to!)

Starfruit

Watermelon

Darren

Joel

Shirleen

Christopher

Yan Hong

Desireen

Yelay

Peiwei

Valane

Rahil

Badd

Mrs Chua

Mrs Gan

Mrs Tey

and of course my mum :)

(Again, I hope I didn't miss anyone out. But anyway, if you can even come to this page, it already shows how important you are to me.)

New Year Resolutions? Of course. I will never forget this :D

1. Family and friends to be in good health.

2. Be a better daughter, a better friend, a better person.

3. Lead a more constructive and meaningful life.

Can I bring something up here? If anyone wants to get me something for my next birthday and has no idea what to get, please come to me. I shall be frank and tell you what I want (of course it will be within your budget!). Not that I'm being thick-skinned, I just thought it will be more practical this way! Rather than spending your money on unncessary items, right? :D

IF YOU CARE FOR ME, as usual, no birthday cakes and songs please. I hate those. (If you want to know why, ask me.)

Thank you people for making my 2009 so happening. Let's hope 2010 will only be better :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR! :)