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I don't want to see it melt away.



大概没有人喜欢输的感觉吧。但我的好胜心更加强烈。要赢,就要做最好的。就算输,也不能是最差的。我想这样的处事态度固然是好的,让我不断求上进,但有时候却因为这样的态度让我感到紧绷。
但不管怎样,我告诉自己还是有希望的。或许是真的,或许是自欺欺人,但希望终究是我向前迈进的目标吧。希望让我希望自己变得更有斗志,更有恒心。
我能够做到的,对吗?我会坚持到最后一秒的,对吧?

失败的话,我会再试。
成功,那也不是你的功劳。你不要假惺惺了。在别人面前你就这么会演戏,有时我真觉得丢脸,甚至想吐。你永远就只会说,不会做。你根本就不值得我尊敬,甚至不配我称呼你一声。你让我很恨自己生活在这样一个环境里。我讨厌我的命,因为我永远跟你都摆脱不了关系,因为你让我的生命永远缺少一个部分,永远不完整。
我今后的成就将会是我自己的努力,与你无关。
就算落魄潦倒,也是我自己,我不会怨你,因为那样只会让我更痛恨我的命运。


我希望拥有自己的空间,希望找到快乐,希望忘记悲伤。
希望“希望”能够鼓舞我度过难熬的每一关…

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