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Do you understand my helplessness.



I read kxn's post and I was like.. Okay, I think I'm feeling the opposite.
Really, I'm losing faith. Every bit of it.
I try my hardest not to compare but it is almost impossible, with the things happening around me. I pondered over what coconut said on her post, "true test of friendship". It set me thinking the things I have done and those you all did. Recently I feel nothing but hurt. Why is it that we have so many conflicting interests? So much so that I feel that I should just stay away, live in my own world. I thought I could live a better life like that.
Am I supposed to lower my expectations or what? It is already my lowest, if I go any lower then I might as well just go to someone else.
All I wanted was presence. We don't even need words, but I just want to feel the presence.
I'm always the one who complicates matters. Is that really the case? Then why can't you give me what I ask for, something so simple, your presence?
I may be someone who feels touched easily. But surprises are no longer what that will touch my heart again. I only want simplicity, something good enough to make me smile the way I want to.
I always thought friends are people who will be there for you when you need them.
I never felt this tired. It's the second time of the year and I'm already sick of it. It makes me so miserable that I really considered staying away, never return.
Is a shared sorrow really halved? Or is it doubled?

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