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Not what it appears to be.

Sometimes I wish I know how to say no. Take for example, tutoring Mrs Kee's kids. I don't know why I'm seeing it as an obligation when apparently it's not.. I just need to say no. But I don't know how. It seems to many that it's a piece of cake rejecting her but to me it's damn tough a task.
I took like 2 years to say no to being YA. It was slightly easier since none of the teachers has taught me before. But now, it's a different case.

It's been raining. I hope it will continue to rain these days so that I MIGHT be able to sleep better... On the average, I sleep less than 7 hours a day and it's killing me.

I think it's scary how people can sometimes tell what kind of a person you are even if they do not know you long enough. Is it better not to be too easily understood?
Now I want to cry but tears won't come out. 有眼泪都哭不出来,I guess this is what it means.

Thank you Nelson, you have been and still are a very supportive friend. I'm glad I can always trust you whenever things happen and make me lose faith in everything or everyone.

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