The very act of living is a tide, at first it seems to make no difference at all, and then one day you look down and see how much pain has eroded.
Back for guides once again. I'm really glad to say I'm enjoying working with this batch of leaders, much better than the previous.
I bet the Sec3s hate me. Look at how they diao at every single word I say. Oh well..
Going for guides is when I feel I'm all alone.. If Jia Hui Mel Sheena SiNi Nicolle Esther Hui Min are all around, I have so much I could share with them. We can gossip together, scold together, torture the girls together. Saddistic but yes, I really enjoy guiding with them.
I can close my eyes and recall the guiding days, and then I feel that they are with me. But when I go for guides meetings, I miss them so much. I wished they would go through these with me. Then I wouldn't feel hurt even if the juniors don't appreciate my committment, or give me lousy attitude. All these would be nothing to me, because I have company, I have support from them.
But nope. The fact remains. I'm all alone. There's forever this wall between the girls and myself, no matter how hard I try to break down this wall. Maybe the problem lies with myself, but I believe this will not apply if the 7 ladies are with me.
Now, I don't even have anyone to share my sorrows with when it comes to guides.
I hadn't been an enthusiastic Guide but I miss the guiding days, a lot a lot.
Back for guides once again. I'm really glad to say I'm enjoying working with this batch of leaders, much better than the previous.
I bet the Sec3s hate me. Look at how they diao at every single word I say. Oh well..
Going for guides is when I feel I'm all alone.. If Jia Hui Mel Sheena SiNi Nicolle Esther Hui Min are all around, I have so much I could share with them. We can gossip together, scold together, torture the girls together. Saddistic but yes, I really enjoy guiding with them.
I can close my eyes and recall the guiding days, and then I feel that they are with me. But when I go for guides meetings, I miss them so much. I wished they would go through these with me. Then I wouldn't feel hurt even if the juniors don't appreciate my committment, or give me lousy attitude. All these would be nothing to me, because I have company, I have support from them.
But nope. The fact remains. I'm all alone. There's forever this wall between the girls and myself, no matter how hard I try to break down this wall. Maybe the problem lies with myself, but I believe this will not apply if the 7 ladies are with me.
Now, I don't even have anyone to share my sorrows with when it comes to guides.
I hadn't been an enthusiastic Guide but I miss the guiding days, a lot a lot.
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