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Life sometimes get so bogged down in the details you forget you are living it. There is always another appointment to be met, another bill to pay, another symptom presenting, another uneventful day to be notched onto the wooden wall. We have synchronised our watches, studied our calendars, existed in minutes, and completely forgotten to step back and see what we've accomplished.

Alright, so my brother flew off to Amsterdam last night. He should be there already. But he hasn't called.
For the first time in my life I think, my brother actually put his arm around me when we took a picture at the airport. And he looked like he was going to hug me before he went in, but he didn't. He hugged my mum and she was so reluctant to let him go. And then, SHE CRIED. Okay, I expected that. And then my brother looked like he was going to cry too.

I always thought my mum is weird. It's merely 6 months! What's there to be sad about?
Then I realised....

Yes, I won't see my brother for 6 months. When he was in army back then, the longest period I didn't see him was... 2 weeks? But this time, he'll be missing in my life for 6 longgg months.
I have been very dependent on him and still am, in terms of asking for random advice and technical help whenever the computers at home are screwed. Now that he's not around for half a year, I pray hard that the systems at home are going to stay alright cos' I really hate it when I need help but my brother's not around. LOL.
Oh yes. And I am probably going to miss his spaghetti and chicken curry. Ohman.

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