The surge of dissatisfaction and anger just doesn't go away.
In fact, I'm on the verge of tears because I can't stomach this.
Yes. I cannot swallow it. I cannot accept it. I cannot bring myself to go along with what others think. Why? Why on earth HER? She has the qualities to be contingent commander? Of all people, HER?
For all that I've done for the unit, she gets the credits. She gets the compliments. All the honour and prestige are bestowed on her and then, what about me? "MOST POTENTIAL"? How am I supposed to accept this?
No, it wasn't an excuse when I gave up on H3 CLL. I didn't give up that subject just because it was a burden to my current subject combination. I really, did it for the unit. But reality proved to me that my decision was way too wrong.
Even if not for 2 years, my 1 year worth of efforts have gone down the drain. I did put my heart and soul into what I did for the company, but I couldn't even get a decent endorsement.
Now her portfolio is going to be so colourful while mine, totally mundane.
I did try to put the endorsement aside and think that it is not at all important because it is the company I'm going back for. Sadly, no one in the company proves to me my mindset is right.
Even if I know it's a wrong choice made, it's too late. The choice has been made and that's that.
I just think this is so not fair.
In fact, I'm on the verge of tears because I can't stomach this.
Yes. I cannot swallow it. I cannot accept it. I cannot bring myself to go along with what others think. Why? Why on earth HER? She has the qualities to be contingent commander? Of all people, HER?
For all that I've done for the unit, she gets the credits. She gets the compliments. All the honour and prestige are bestowed on her and then, what about me? "MOST POTENTIAL"? How am I supposed to accept this?
No, it wasn't an excuse when I gave up on H3 CLL. I didn't give up that subject just because it was a burden to my current subject combination. I really, did it for the unit. But reality proved to me that my decision was way too wrong.
Even if not for 2 years, my 1 year worth of efforts have gone down the drain. I did put my heart and soul into what I did for the company, but I couldn't even get a decent endorsement.
Now her portfolio is going to be so colourful while mine, totally mundane.
I did try to put the endorsement aside and think that it is not at all important because it is the company I'm going back for. Sadly, no one in the company proves to me my mindset is right.
Even if I know it's a wrong choice made, it's too late. The choice has been made and that's that.
I just think this is so not fair.
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