I used to be strong.

I don't ask for everyone's kind understanding but yours is the least I could ask for.
Not that I don't know you love me but somehow I feel that you just don't recognise or acknowledge my efforts.
I love you too but even if that's the case, I wouldn't feel guilty since I feel that I'm not in the wrong.

This is a problem that harasses me forever but why won't everyone stop asking me to not think about it.
I used to be so strong but now I could cry at the slightest matters.

It's ever harder now to place trust in anyone. The world seems so slippery that I have to trust no one but myself to protect myself from an unseen attack.
My soul is now so disintegrated because of the fact that disappointment and sense of loss have devoured the last bit of hope, faith and courage I thought I had.

I'm weak once again.

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