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When will anyone get it.

It's a very warm and nice feeling to be missed.
However, to me, it's a terrible feeling to miss.
Last year's farewell party, my fellow 7 ladies enjoyed themselves at Sentosa and Escape. I was away at Thailand and I really missed them. Could tell they had a lot of fun from the pictures taken.

This year's Guides camp, I'll be away at China and they will be going for at least a day. I'm so going to miss them again and I just hate it. I swear we must have loads of fun at the farewell party this year to make up for the times I went missing.

The ultimate measure of a man is where he stands at times of challenge and controversy? I will seriously hope so then.
Because simply no one understands and no one will. Be it the people who supported my decision or those who didn't. Doesn't make a big difference here because only me myself will know how it feels like to be stuck in between two situations, out of which, none is positive.
Indeed, Mrs Gan has told me, if I see something positive in a situation, I ought to stay to make changes. If I don't, I should jolly well get out of the situation.
Yet, my conscience tells me getting out is not the best way out.

Mr Chiang keeps harping on it each time I go back and coincide with him. I would very much like to tell him how stressful and tiring, as well as unappreciated I feel but I don't know how to put it across to him and I guess there isn't even a need to.
For once, I didn't want to see the teachers I always loved seeing. Because I really hate going back, I hate travelling for such a long time to somewhere my efforts don't get paid off.

4 months. I'm telling myself it's only another 4 months.
With a new subject coming up next year, my workload is piling up and the pressure is building up as well.
Whether I can make it or not ultimately, at least I will feel better after all these.
And I'm merely carrying out what I told my fellow YAs at the YA Unit Camp, I'll do my best to help raise the standards of my Guide company and assist my girls in clinching PNA Gold Award.
Superficial it might sound. But if I've tried my best, no regrets.

Right, drop this topic and move on!

Yeah, really move on:)
He was walking into school just now and from far, I thought he was Daryl. Until SiNi told me it was him then I rushed out of the school from the side gate. Hmmm. My 37 days of efforts did not go down the drain and I will not allow them to:)

想念是会呼吸的痛 它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛 看你的信会痛 连沈默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛 它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛 恨不懂你会痛 想见不能见最痛

没看你脸上 张扬过哀伤
那是种多么 寂寞的倔强
你拆了城墙 让我去流浪
在原地等我 把自己捆绑

你没说 你也会软弱 需要依赖我
我就装不晓得 自由移动 自我地过

我发誓不再说谎了 多爱你就会抱你多紧的
我的微笑都假了 灵魂像飘浮著 你在就好了

我发誓不让你等候 陪你做想做的无论什么
我越来越像贝壳 怕心被人触碰 你回来那就好了

能重来那就好了

Wanted to put lyrics of 101 but decided not to, otherwise Angie will say I copycat! >.<
This song is nicer la!
Totally contradicts my thoughts!
This Max, called me to recommend this song and said "这首歌很适合你leh!你看,思念是多么痛苦的!..."
Doinks! 能重来那就好了? No way!
I'm moving forward in my life and not turning back for the non-flowering plant >.<

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I'll never understand.

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