inconsolable.

God knows what's happening to me these two days. I'll probably collapse of the fatal pain one of these mornings. It's killing me and I shall know what really went wrong when I collapse. Ha.

GP 1 and GSC paper 1 were not too friendly because what I studied did not come out. See? That's the result of 'banging'. Nevertheless, comprehension for both subjects turned out to be rather manageable. I won't know how I fared though. I failed GP comprehension for Common Test even though I said it was easy.

Supposed to go swimming with Zhi but ended up slacking at Max's house. Watched the drama serial that I needed to watch so badly. I can hardly imagine we are the ones taking 3 H2 subject papers next week, at the rate we're moving.

I'm trying not to think about the enjoyment after next week. Shucks, it's hard not to think about it. After all, I always 'begin with the end in mind'.
Or maybe, the first thing I should do is ask my mum to bring me to the doctor for a check-up.

The incessant cries have come to an end. They probably won't be back anymore.
That's because I have challenged Angie :D
Don't be too arrogant! I might not lose!!!


I close the door
Like so many times, so many times before
Filmed like a scene on the cutting room floor
I wanna let you walk away tonight
Without a word

I try to sleep
But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me
A thousand more regrets unraveling
If you were here right now, I swear
I'd tell you this

I don't want to waste another day
Keeping it inside is killing me
'Cause all I ever want, it comes right down to you
I wish that I could find the words to say
I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable

I climb the walls
I can see the edge but I can't take the fall
I memorized the number
So why can't I make the call?
Maybe 'cause I know you'll always be with me
In the possibility

I don't wanna be like this
I just wanna let you know
Everything that I hold in
Is everything I can't let go