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如何是好?

你总是说我不体谅你,你又何时体谅过我的感受?何时给过我机会解释?
你连一个让我为自己辩护的机会都不留给我,那就公平吗?
我不是不明白你的苦心,但我只是想讲道理。
你每次说你从不会心情不好时,拿我们出气,但这显然不是真的。
你说我不听你的电话,但我真的是没感觉到电话震动。你却说我找借口。我真不知道应该怎么与你沟通。
有时候,我觉得我应该做个乖女儿,好好孝顺你,但你却让我觉得我再怎么努力都是没用的。
我知道你累。我同样是。虽没你累,但我那被你一次又一次冤枉的心灵已经破碎得让我不知道怎么把它们再拼凑起来。
我承认从小就爱说谎,但我就不能改过吗?
现在,我再怎么老实,你都不信任我。
你说你放心让我做我想做的事,但这一切都不是真的。
因为你总说:“你不要找借口。”

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