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Not much homework today, FINALLY.
So decided to satisfy my addiction a little. OMG, that sounds wrong =xx

Progress Report back.
GP: D
GSC: B
MH: C
CSC: A
CLL: A

Saddening Maths. Saddening GSC. Saddening GP.

Miss Chiew remarked that I'm intelligent and motivated. Oh my. Am I supposed to feel happy? =x I feel like telling her, "Miss Chiew, you don't know me enough." LOL.



My sis, I'm glad you have grown up. Maybe you should not worry over whether I will be reading that entry of yours. Cause' since last year, I always read your blog entries whenever I go online. Maybe you should have guessed why I always know about your tracks. And sometimes, I get so mad reading certain entries that involved Mother. However, I'm seriously touched that you have put down your pride and even said sorry to me. That was certainly unnecessary because I believe we don't need any apologies. Often, we care too much about our pride and neglect many things and people around us. I put down my pride last year to have a face-to-face talk with you. I thought it will never be appreciated but it was anyway. And, it really didn't come too late. (:

Well, perhaps you are right. I should learn to let go a little, bit by bit. I do hope you have really matured and know what you're doing. I'm not exactly worried about your studies but more about your development. I really hope you grow up as someone who is responsible and sensible, but sometimes your rebellion and indifference make me feel helpless because I really don't have the slightest idea how I can change your mindset. The times you called me a bitch, even though you didn't know that I was aware, really hurt me. I always wished we could be like other sisters who confide in each other, even about the crushes they had, the boyfriends they had. I won't say I have gone through what you are going through now because we are 2 different persons after all, everything we have undergone are different. These two years, I have been thinking, not how to pit against you less, but how to care more for you. Each time I see you with a guy, I can't help but feel worried, just like Mother does.

There are times I really wanted to blog about you, but fearing that you will come up with all the vulgarities and dissatisfaction. Frankly speaking, if you really saw that I typed stuff about you, you would flare up, right? Alrights, however, after going through what you have said, I promise, I will let go a little. I will give you a little more freedom than that you used to enjoy. But you got to promise me too, that you are responsible of yourself, you can take good care of yourself and you will learn to prioritise. Deal?

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  1. yeah, its a deal. thank you, thank you so much, and for all that whatever i have done to you, IM SORRIE!! really sincerely.

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  2. No more sorries.

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