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I remember when I failed the first Chinese test of my life when I was sec4, I really was on the verge of crying.

Today, I failed the first Maths test of my life.
Yes, it's MATHS.

But I'm not on the verge of crying. I won't.
I know I didn't work hard and I don't deserve to pass.

Mrs Chan said something that was almost like what Mrs Gan said to me last year when she returned me my first test paper of the year on Loci. Mrs Gan was fiercer, her tone so much worse.

Mrs Gan/2006: I don't expect this kind of result from you! You should be doing better than this! (stares)

Mrs Chan/2007: You shouldn't be performing like this, right? (smiles)

Whatever that is.
Watch me. I will not fail again.



Went back to CT and studied with Kevin.
He said I'm egoistic. I have to admit I am.












You still live in my heart.
But my soul's dead anyway.
Maybe your existence is merely pointless.
Is it really time we say goodbye?

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