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Stayed home all day long to watch shows. Finished watching two already. One was so sad. I don't know if I teared because I yawned or because it touched my heart. LOL.

It pained again and today was a bad one. We talk over MSN like friends but when we see each other, it's a different story. I hate a life like this though there's nothing much I can do to change it. If each time I go back can be like last Wednesday, I seriously won't mind. I think that'll be good enough. Maybe I might not be contented and end up grumbling again, I don't know. But even though each time I ask for something really simple, my wish isn't always granted.

Another 2 months to 2 years. And I kind of hope this 2 months won't pass so quickly. Or it might seem so long.



Whichever direction I turned to, there was no way out.

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