Went to school to learn lashings and knots from Jia Hui and Melissa today. The ropes hurt my hand but still, I have learnt something new and it was kind of fun.
Of course, there's another reason why I went to school today.
Before everything was revealed, Mrs. Gan has already spilled the beans to Melissa and me. So I finally could heave a sigh of relief and throw the stone that was lying on my heart away.
I didn't really want to see, i thought. But I still saw and from then on, everything I saw at everywhere else seemed to be linked to him. Maybe that was only hallucination. Maybe.
Shopping with Melissa after that. Perhaps we were bored to the extent that we had to shop at IKEA. LOL.
Decision making isn't really a nice game to play. To make it worse, I am clueless about what I really want.
I can ask for advice but eventually, I will still have to make the decision myself. No one, at all, can tell me what I should choose, what decision to make.
Does it really concern my future? Do I really not want to regret like Mrs. Tan?
Sometimes I really wish the decisions will not be harder to make as I grow. I know that it's not the end of the road, I know that I just have to make the turn at the bend. Yet I don't know what is holding me back, what exactly is making me feel reluctant to make the turn.
However, I guess I have no right to say "Why did this happen to me?" whenever troubles look for me. Because I don't really say that when moments of happiness come my way.
The decision is still in my hand. And, what do I really want?
I'd better be back to watching my vcds. At least they keep me occupied and I will stop indulging in my sinful pleasures for some time.
Rahil is back, I think? Rahil, time for shopping.
Of course, there's another reason why I went to school today.
Before everything was revealed, Mrs. Gan has already spilled the beans to Melissa and me. So I finally could heave a sigh of relief and throw the stone that was lying on my heart away.
I didn't really want to see, i thought. But I still saw and from then on, everything I saw at everywhere else seemed to be linked to him. Maybe that was only hallucination. Maybe.
Shopping with Melissa after that. Perhaps we were bored to the extent that we had to shop at IKEA. LOL.
Decision making isn't really a nice game to play. To make it worse, I am clueless about what I really want.
I can ask for advice but eventually, I will still have to make the decision myself. No one, at all, can tell me what I should choose, what decision to make.
Does it really concern my future? Do I really not want to regret like Mrs. Tan?
Sometimes I really wish the decisions will not be harder to make as I grow. I know that it's not the end of the road, I know that I just have to make the turn at the bend. Yet I don't know what is holding me back, what exactly is making me feel reluctant to make the turn.
However, I guess I have no right to say "Why did this happen to me?" whenever troubles look for me. Because I don't really say that when moments of happiness come my way.
The decision is still in my hand. And, what do I really want?
I'd better be back to watching my vcds. At least they keep me occupied and I will stop indulging in my sinful pleasures for some time.
Rahil is back, I think? Rahil, time for shopping.
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