On CNY

girls.
they need words to seal bondings.
but they have no idea guys never know exactly what romantic words are.
haha.
life is this funny.

got this from an article last week. interesting. ha.

mum told me something today.
she hopes i will find time to have a talk with her.
she says i seem as if i have nothing to talk to her about.
she says i seem as if i am not happy with all my siblings.
ha.

i wished she knew i hope she won't always come home so late every night too.

there,
now she's talking to me on the phone about it again.

waiting for the last day of my life.
yea. why not?
every monday, i look forward to friday.
every friday, i look forward to holidays.
every single day, i look forward to the day i am free from all troubles and misery.

don't tell me this is having no aim in life.

i know.
i know this is suicide of my own mind.


my heart is bleeding.
tears are desperately attempting to roll, but to no avail.