i guess this is the feeling of ambivalence.
one moment i feel like it's end-of-world.
because i failed chinese test.
yes, SECOND TIME ever since i received education.
that makes 12 years.
on the other hand, i feel super duper happy.
because mrs gan finally praised me.
yes, FINALLY.
know what?
i was one of the top for zuo wen.
yup, and the only one told to stand in front of the class to read my piece.
indeed, no one can understand.
it's tormenting to read out a pack of lies.
i'm asked to read about how fabulous my family is.
beats me.
i have no idea why i'm still thinking about that matter.
gary was spot-on.
though i somewhat dislike him, i can't deny the fact he's right.
being betrayed is the WORST feeling of all emotions.
and now what?
i still have to face it everyday.
to me, one sad thing in life is that i can't find a person who will really listen to me attentively, without getting sensitive over anything, without getting angry with whatever you say, without drifting away.
perhaps i have not found this person yet.
i wished i could let out this uber miserable feeling inside me.
one moment i feel like it's end-of-world.
because i failed chinese test.
yes, SECOND TIME ever since i received education.
that makes 12 years.
on the other hand, i feel super duper happy.
because mrs gan finally praised me.
yes, FINALLY.
know what?
i was one of the top for zuo wen.
yup, and the only one told to stand in front of the class to read my piece.
indeed, no one can understand.
it's tormenting to read out a pack of lies.
i'm asked to read about how fabulous my family is.
beats me.
i have no idea why i'm still thinking about that matter.
gary was spot-on.
though i somewhat dislike him, i can't deny the fact he's right.
being betrayed is the WORST feeling of all emotions.
and now what?
i still have to face it everyday.
to me, one sad thing in life is that i can't find a person who will really listen to me attentively, without getting sensitive over anything, without getting angry with whatever you say, without drifting away.
perhaps i have not found this person yet.
i wished i could let out this uber miserable feeling inside me.
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