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he laughs at my dream.and i dream about his laughter.

the above title is modified from red general's msn nick.
cool!

watched the 9.30 show just now.
zhang zhi lin is so bloody shuai!!! =xx
before he died, he said to shuqi,

"the thing i wanted to steal was... your heart."
"but you stole my heart instead."

oh mah god!!

can't watch tong meng qi yuan tomorrow le.
so gotta rot at home.
sianity civilisation!!
okay, i'm just so bored.
let me crap a little.

firstly, not many people know about this blog.
i should say only really close friends know?
rahil, mel, chew chew, limin, matrix, tecky, pengpeng and quek.

used to keep changing blog url.
and usually the first to know would be rahil.
followed by sther, huimin and blah blah blah.

but nah, not anymore.

i have learnt to see things a different way, i think.
it's not really too good to let too many people know something. lol.
the previous blog i had, sucked la.
first thing, it had an indirect impact on rahil and me.
second, i have to beware of those i am bu suang with. i can't write anything about them because i can't offend them.
third thing, people who are bu suang with me love to tag nonsense and refuse to reveal their identity. and obviously they are people i know. lol.
so, letting too many people know about my blog is like defeating the purpose of having a blog.
however, i'm certainly happy with my current one. (:

one will always mature after losing too many things.
how true is that?
well at least i feel that it does apply to me, maybe a little.
like mel, chew chew and tecky.
these 3 especially.
thanks for accepting me as a friend again. (:

max is just so right.
sther, huimin and i don't have a stable friendship all along.
it's just on the surface.
not in a lesbiantic way, but yea, patch and break and patch and break.
i'm tired of it, you bet.

whenever i need to ask sther of a favour.
i have to di sheng xia qi.
i have to see her lian se.
i have to beg her.
well. that, i don't really mind.
after all i'm asking a favour from her.

carnival?
it's for?
3d1. not ME, only.
and then?
i also have to see her lian se?
why?
because i keep asking her.
because she needs to help out at guides stall.
because she is under a lot of pressure.
and me? because i'm like so relaxed. hor?

why for goodness do i have to see her lian se all the time when i am doing it for the class?

when i'm unhappy, sther and huimin will ask "ni mei shi ba?" or "are you okay?"
standard questions. WITHOUT FAIL.
i know they ask out of concern.
but when i tell them "no" or the things i'm going through, they will only answer "never mind la." and walk off like it's anyone's business.

when i'm unhappy,
max would sing for me. (most significant one)
matrix would say "you want to cry just cry. got any probs tell me."
mel will act cute and say lame stuff.
chew chew will put her arms around me and listen to me attentively.
limin will pass me a letter from behind and infect me with her contagious smile.
zirui will zuo xiao guo and bully me until i laugh.
yuyuan will tap me with his finger and talk to me in a childish tone.
xiaobai will give me that super blur look that is super funneh.

these are actions that lit my face.
thanks people. (:

i remembered jiemin was the one who pulled me into guides.
initially i didn't really enjoy.
but soon, yea.
but i must say, i enjoy because 2 very important friends are supporting me all the time.
yes, mel and chew chew. (:


even though there can be hypocrites at times, that is not my concern.






this is me.

guolian, a girl. 15. 3d1o5. ctss girl guide. kingfisher's PL. (:
my wish can be stupid but yea, i wish to take part in the international five stones competition if there's one. =xx
i hope there will be one day when all my good friends feel safe to confide in me.
my current best friends are MY LJS ( Mel, Yinghao, Limin, Jiahui, teckSing.) and zirui and of course, siti rahil.

i told myself, even if my family can never be as a whole again, it's okay.
i want every one on earth to lead a peaceful life.
i want people around me to be happy, healthy, always.


it's 12.15 a.m. i'm off to sleep.
good night. (:

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