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the jigsaw puzzles are gone.

went to library at esplanade with peng peng and sther.
THE JIGSAW PUZZLES ARE GONE!!
saddening case man!
wa. i am so sad siarh.

so clear. so luminous. so nice.
ALL GONE.

hai. i hope i can get to see them again.

a lot of people there today.
probably it's a saturday ba.
damn crowded.
stupid siarh. the library so small.
can't find my books. ):





i hate to pretend but i'm really fucked up.
mum blasts at me all the time and i get beatings when i don't know what i did.
dad has left singapore for god-knows-why and don't know when will be back.
i'm stuck at the reply to siti's letter.
he doesn't talk to me ANYMORE.
my work is piling up.
the two people i trust most are like.. backstabbing me?
and what now?
mum has bought 12 cartons of white cream milk when i asked for chocolate flavour.
my fault? be it yes or no, i have to finish them.
like DUH?

i wonder why all the obstacles i have come across did not sharpen my ability to withstand all these blows.
everytime i feel like crying, i have to look up.
i can't cry.
at least not in public, not in front of my friends, not in front of my family.
only in the showers, in bed. or, my fave, in the RAIN.

like i know and always say -
my life, seemed to be ruined.

i have no motivation for school anymore.
not at all.
i really hate school.

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