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a thousand reasons to be SAD.

third entry? lol.
have not studied chem test!
I HATE MYSELF FOR THAT.
bad girl. hai.

still listening to zhang xue you's songs. nice nice. hee.

i've been online for like the whole day?
waiting and waiting.
i chose not to make the first approach. i don't know why.
maybe it's my stubborn-ness acting up again. ha.

but i still did.

his nick saddens me. but as if it's any of my business.
i don't know when i will wake up.
probably i just wish to keep dreaming and fantasizing.
probably i couldn't accept some cruel facts.

and i want to highlight this.
MUST EVERYTHING BE VOICED OUT?
certain things are already so OBVIOUS on the surface?

siti and i.
we are FRIENDS. that's the TERM i guess.
who can tell that we are friends?
it's already evident that we don't know each other anymore.
it's just a matter of whether our friendship has OFFICIALLY ended.

both of them.
she told me they did not patch up.
if that's so, what gives him the right to hold her by the waist?
good friends to that extent?
oh please. i am toopid. but not totally BRAINLESS.
it's just a matter of whether both of you are OFFICIALLY in a relationship.

you.
you told me that when you knew i wouldn't believe you.
but maybe you forgot i ain't a retard.
or you have regarded me as one.


lies.
these are all lies.
a pack of lies.


don't wake me up.

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