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qns.
yest went to nh for e lantern festival celebration thing.
went with mel meili joycelyn and chris x.
i had fun.
but hopefully didn bore them.
anw.e paper1 for both languages yest were rather tough.
okies.saw tt jerk at e lantern festival celebration last nite.
wanted to take photo of him to show kaixin and qimei.
but chris has got very lousy photography skills.
so no choice lor.
lol.

really wanna cry.so many things i could cry over.

didn gt to go to blue's concert.mayb i dun seem like a big fan of blue.but i noe no one wil understand how sad n disappointed i was for not being able to go to their concert.i noe i wil definitely regret.in fact.i m regretting le.

jay's concert coming up nx.sther going.of cos i wanna go.but how to afford e tickets.stil owe sther 15bucks some more.

parents quarrel.but wat can i do as a child?i dunno.and somehow i cant be bothered le.

i was e cause of e gap between chris and clement.wat to do?i destroyed a frenship.didn i?

a best fren taking me as a stranger.y is that so?am i really not worth a fren?perhaps.

y is it tt it seems like anything i do makes limin and tsu hui and shawn so pissed? i jz feel so.is dere sth wrong with my personality?

y is it tt my ouxiang sms me only when he's sian or sad. and now?he kicks me aside cos he has someone else to sms.mayb he didn wan to have nightmares?yes.he says i m his nightmare.was i too gd a counsellor tt he only turns to me when he needs a listening ear?

have i let shirleen down? she seems to have become a much unhappier person aft knowing me.so many things started cos of me.is dere anything i can do to salvage all these?

y does chris tell me to shut up whenever hl cries?is crying really tt powerful?if tt's e case.i'd rather b stubborn.cos i prefer to put up a strong front.and is watching tv more impt den talking to a fren?perhaps.if tt fren isnt a worthy one.

am i always leaving out mel?guess so.m i always not sparing a tot for her feelings whenever i talk bad abt her class?y m i always unable to b dere for a best fren yet she is always dere for me?

y is e conver between me n stheng getting lesser?m i always making things diff for her whenever i mentioned tt limin treats me coldly?m i being very selfish.guess so.

y is it tt almost everyone knows abt siti and her 'him' but i dun?i tot i'm her best fren?y do i noe so little abt her?

wat bad deeds have i done to offend hock chuan?y must he bad mouth me til like tt?y did he say i'm his gd fren in e first place?

was i considered nasty to lyn cos i kept complaining abt her best fren?have i tried putting myself in her shoes?dun think so ba.

am i engaging myself in guides?aint i slacking too much?cannot even tahan 10pumpings.y have i become so lousy?

y is it tt nowadays e only one who wil bother abt me in e class is huimin?she even offered to wait for me after calligraphy lesson.i cn only say i m grateful to her for being dere these couple of months.but is dere anything i cn do to express my gratitude?

y is it tt sometimes i find seniors better to talk to den my own frens of e same batch?i really appreciate kaixin meili chris lien joycelyn and qimei.

everyone is a hypocrite.everyone leads a contradicting life.even a perfectionist isnt perfect.so is it true tt no one shld go for perfection?

i m so full of qns.who can give me e ans to all of them?

exams. stressed. i hate my life.

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