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cant figure out y.
headache mann. y must everyone confuse me? my god mann.
i really cant figure out y. y must she tell me diff things.
y must she get so sensitive over my words.
i hv no choice but to regret wat i hv done. i shldn hv told her.
if i hadn seen her blog this morning. i wldn noe.
somehow i jus think is not fair to me.
y cant she tell me e truth in e first place.
if she has done so. i wldn tell her something i shldn hv.
i didn do that purposely to spite her. i really didn.
pple around me told me many things.
"she jus wan to make you feel guilty and give up..."
"she purposely tell you something but doesn think so in fact..."
"she's trying to gain sympathy cant you c that..."
i dunno whether to believe them.
i think i hv chosen not to.
haiz. but i didn wan to give up jus like that anw. for no reason.
last nite i was surprised that he sms me when he was free.
we talked til 12.31:11. first time talked til so late.
maybe supposed to be happy de ba.
but this morning turned out to be like that.
guides wasn nice today. due to this kind of mood.
computer class wasn that fun too.
guides ended early. went mac with min jiemin yiqin qimei wen si.
he was dere. but we could jus walk past as if we dunno each other.
maybe i could hv a choice to say hi. but i didn.
sheena kept telling me he got turn back to look at me.
but i doubt her words. not that i dun believe her ba. i dunno. haiz.
anw. not a very nice day today afterall.
i tot i wont use e sad smiley chris sent me on msn le.
but i was wrong.
today i used it.
and i think i wil hv to use it for dunno how long le.

//miss.you.loads.

guolovesduncan *|a|a|a
6.12pm

if you wan to hurt me.
do so when i wont be hurt by you anymore.
but i think that wil be.
either decades or centuries later.
or perhaps.
that day wont come?
-shrugs-

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